attempting humility…creating space
Posts tagged dreams
Thats Mr. Onion Loaf to you !!!
Mar 21st
Last night I had a crazy dream. I was walking with the “Don” and he looked over to me and said, “Just hang in there for another month, America will love you.” I was a contestant on The Apprentice, and the Don was looking after me ! He walked me back to our trailer, Stacy was with me too. The room was a complete disaster…but neither I nor the Don really cared. What mattered to me is that the Don was looking after me, he really liked me. And then I woke up to Andre jumping on the bed.
Forgotten Dreams
Mar 17th
Have you ever had a really intense dream ? Only to forget it when you woke up, then remember it later, and then forget it again ? Last night I had a mega dream-the kind that are epic in tale and involves many segments of real life. The only problem is I can’t remember anything about it, except the fact that it was a big dream. I’ll probably remember it later, only to forget it again.
Jan 19th
Last night I had a dream. I was in this coffee shop type place, painted dark walls and it was dark outside. I get a call on my cell phone. “Hello,” I said. “hey whats up craig.” Its an older pastor friend of mine(I knew who it was in the dream..dont know now) He continues “….well I have being doing this ministry….blah blah blah(dont remember the small talk)..I want you to come and minister(phone starts breaking up) with…..me…..it pays……6…” Phone goes dead…I am excited about the chance to get back into “full time..paid” ministry. I tried to call back no answer…I wake up.
In real life a few nights ago I was talking with my friend about how I am over the whole “title” thing of being in ministry. Truth be told I really miss having the freedom to be with young people all the time. To be able to worship and study the word and pray and preach and teach and goto camp and be an agent of change in peoples live….and be supported to do so. Most days I get home from work I am so tired
Jan 19th
Last night I had a dream. I was in this coffee shop type place, painted dark walls and it was dark outside. I get a call on my cell phone. “Hello,” I said. “hey whats up craig.” Its an older pastor friend of mine(I knew who it was in the dream..dont know now) He continues “….well I have being doing this ministry….blah blah blah(dont remember the small talk)..I want you to come and minister(phone starts breaking up) with…..me…..it pays……6…” Phone goes dead…I am excited about the chance to get back into “full time..paid” ministry. I tried to call back no answer…I wake up.
In real life a few nights ago I was talking with my friend about how I am over the whole “title” thing of being in ministry. Truth be told I really miss having the freedom to be with young people all the time. To be able to worship and study the word and pray and preach and teach and goto camp and be an agent of change in peoples live….and be supported to do so. Most days I get home from work I am so tired
dreamer
May 23rd
I remember when I used to stay awake all night dreaming about how awesome “MY” youth group would be. I remember the excitement when I got to design “MY” youth group T-Shirts. And how great it was to talk shop with other youth pastors about all sorts of things. Well those days are gone,
long gone. Now my dog wakes me up @ 5:45 AM to make sure that I take him potty. I stand/sit at a desk and try, I repeat try to help people get their cars fixed(I work @ a car dealership). I used to talk to scared/confused parents about there troubled kids. Now I talk to anger customers about their broken cars. I used to pray with my youth workers that we would be able to reach out to our kids. Now I pray that I don’t forget to add that $150 for the spark plug replacement, less I get chewed out by my manager(not really because my manager is really nice). Weird how life changes so quickly. I still like my job. Just funny how things can change so quickly.
When I was in Bible College I remember thinking that I would be in “full-time” ministry forever. It was hard to imagine that I would not be in the 10% of Bible College grads that would still be in ministry after 10 years. And here I am 5 years aft graduation. Not only “out” of full-time ministry, but feeling that I might never go back. I am not mad @ God, or the churches that I served at in the past. Just feeling that a “full-time” paid position is not where its at. I think that I have much more freedom to serve God while working @ a car dealership, or hopefully owning my own buisness one day. Either way…its weird.
God would you remind me what I am doing here again ? I am not complaining…I just need to be reminded that I am where you want me to be. And if I am not where I am supposed to be, please mae that obvious to me, as you know that I am hardheaded.
